Anyone want to be my partner with this weight lost

Okay I really need some encouragement I really don't have the support that I need to loose this weight. I really feel like I am spinning my wheels . Anyone that would like to send me daily Happy Thoughts I would not turn you down!! I've got to get in shape I am so tired of feeling like a old woman!!! My health depends on this, I am going to keep track daily my exercise and diet plan along with pictures every now and then hopefully this will get me motivated

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Happy Birthday Michael

Well 17 years ago today I gave birth to my son Michael He was the cutest little rug rat! Blonde hair that stood up no matter what I did to try and make it lie down. He was a really good baby. I remember so many times just looking at him and being amazed what a beautiful child he is. I was so happy to be his mother, Around the age of 1.5 I noticed that my "perfect" baby wasn't so Perfect after all. I noticed that he would sit and rock for hours and would not look at me when I called him. He didn't want to be held and he became a very picky eater. I took him for some test and was informed that my child was Autistic I thought I would die that day! What happen? Where did Igo wrong? I couldn't understand why I would have a child like this.. As the years progressed I became very angry , I get so upset that he will never be able to drive a car hold a job or even get married so I can be a grandma someday! This was not what I had planned for my life. Today he is a 17 year old in a Grown man's body with the mind of a 5 year old. He never want's to go anywhere, he won't get dressed in fear that we are going to leave the house. I wonder why I was allowed to be this child's mother? I really can't help him in the way that he need's help , Right now I can't even get the child to attend school anymore, all he wants to do is sit in his bedroom and watch video's all the time. I really hate the fact that I feel this way, IT is so hard to really love someone that demands so much from you. Don't get me wrong I love him as a mother should ,it's just I can't stand to be around him ,he drains me mentally and physically, I have lost all respect to those people that thought that they were helping this child. Guess what you didn't make a hell of a difference. Sorry that this is such a bummer I can't help being angry!!!

Where did I go wrong?

Where did I go wrong with my oldest son Chris? Here he will be 22 in March no job no drivers license no will to move out and start a life of his own!!!! All he does is fight and complain about politics and Health care and why he didn't get to go to college because we as his parents didn't put money away so he could go, and on and on... We were doing good just to provide a home and food and clothes for him and his younger brother. I am at my wits end trying to get him to move on with his life What am I to do???????

Life as we know it!

As I sit here and think back on my life I find it somewhat humorous, Life never turn's out like you think it will when you are younger, but that can be a good thing. I recall when I was a young girl ever wondering if there would be a man out there that would love me for who I am and not what others thought I should be. Well There is that special man , In Nov. of this year he and I will have been married for 25 years. I could never ask for a more loving and perfect man for me than my sweet Tim. Yes we have had our up's and downs but what relationship hasn't? I believe that those downs have brought us closer and made us really appreciate each other more and more. All around us we have dear friends that find themselves in a terrible predicament. Just this last year we have had 3 couples that we have known for years decided to end their marriages and go there separate ways. These are friends that were all married in the Temple and had been married at least 20 years or more.... It is so scary to think that people throw their marriage away like the weekly trash. I hope & pray that Those dear sweet friends will find happiness once again in their lives. I Thank my Heavenly Father everyday that he lead me and Tim together and that we have been blessed with 2 son's and that we are sealed for time and all eternity. We have a long way to go , We are not perfect,and I need to get myself back on track. I plan on making a new resolution to return to the fold and be the woman that I know that my H. F. want's me to be. I have made up my mind that I have to stop blaming others for my weakness and stand tall and do the right thing!

Friday's Snow Storm!!!

Well I can't believe this but it happened.... Tim went outside and thought that he would shovel the driveway,even though it was still snowing like crazy.... Well before I knew it he had fallen and knocked himself out so I had to call 911 to take him to the hospital, The roads were so bad that I had our Friend Robert Morgan go to the Hosp and bring him home when they got done with all the testing. He will be okay but they did find something on the cat scan so they did a MRI and he has 2 disk in his neck that are deteriorating and a lump on his thyroid, so of course he is freaking out and now he is having a fit because of the bill that we will have since he had to go and in a ambulance on top of that........it never ends around here I swear!!!

At my Wits End!

Well today was not a very productive day with Michael and his Doctor Visit, 1st of all we waited 45 minutes just to see him and then when we get in there he informs me that he wants Michael to see this other Doctor to be tested and treated that he really can't do anything for him. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a waste of time money and my nerves. There has got to be a program out there that I can help this kid with. IS it because he is on the States Insurance or what? All I can say is I really don't know how much more of his meltdowns and aggressive behavior I can take!!!!! Where did that sweet little boy of mine go? All I want is to be able to get this child the help that he need's is that asking to much?