Weight lost is a Pain in the Butt!!

Okay I know that if I want to improve my health then I have to loose this weight. I am trying my darn-est to follow this nutrisystem plan for Diabetics some day's I can and other days I have a real hard time at this time of the year ....... but I have to do this for sure!!!!

Driving with Chris

Well today Chris and I went over to Gainesville and it was raining This was the first time that he had ever driven in the rain and he did really good. He still has issues about if he should or shouldn't do certain things with his driving. I think if we allow him to get behind the wheel more than he does he will improve and have more convenience with his driving...

It's almost Christmas

So It's another year that has flow by.... The older I get the faster time seems to go by, I am having a real hard time even getting into the season.Working Retail might have something to do with it.
I can't even put up a tree or decorate the house It just isn't anything I want to deal with. Well It's not all about that anyway the world has become so commercial. I just don't want to deal with all of that anymore This Picture is of my 2 great nephews Fawn's boy's Calvin and Kennedy. They are what Christmas is to me. Along with all my other nieces and nephews FAMILY IS CHRISTMAS... It's so hard to live so far from everyone maybe that's why I feel this way!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone

Hope everyone has a great day and don't over eat!!!!!:)

Woah Where have I been?

I have been so bad about keeping up with this blog It is already almost the end of the year and so many things I need to do and post so I promise that I will get this blog up to date Later :)

Over load

The last few day's have been Hell around here. Michael can not stop the melt downs and nothing we do or say seem to help he has to wear himself out and I hate to see him have to be in such disarray.
Tim finally lost his temper with Michael last night I really think that this is going to become worst than better with this child.

2 more day"s

Yes just 2 more day's VACATION!!!!!!
I can't wait I am flying up to Montana to see mom and dad and other family members Lot's of pictures will be taken... I am still debating if I am going to take this lap top! Yes I believe I will that way I can keep up with my blog and picture taking.

Yogi and the flea's

Poor dog not only are the flea's attacking him he has chewed a hole in his back where they like to hang out on him!I went to Pet Smart and got everything I need to help him poor thing has to wear a cone so he will stop biting at the hot spot.

New Computer

Well It finally happen I got a new Lap Top And I love it. Tim bought it for me for my 50th birthday! Yes it's true I am 5o now!! Man I can't beleive how fast life is I mean I haven't even done any of the things that I would love to do before I get too old and can't do them!
Well As soon as I can I will be adding New pictures and stories about my trip up to Montana this year I have been able to go 2 years in a roll now Tim bought me the plane ticket so I'll be able to go up there..

Why do I put up with stupid people?

Have you ever had one of those day's where all around you there are stupid people ?
Well it seems like I have them more and more, Working at Goodwill as the store manager I run into the strangest people that I have ever encountered in my life. For example I have this lady drive up with a trailer load of nasty moldy trash and want to donate them, I tryed to tell her in a nice way that I would not be able to sell items like that , that she need's to just haul it to the dump. Well that pissed her off, I mean I wish you could have smelt that trailer and seen the nasty crap she was trying to unload on us at the store. Do people really think that other people that can't afford nice expensive things want to pay their hard earn money on someone else s trash??? People please think about what you donate , would you want to buy items like that? I think not....
Don't get me wrong we have taken a lot of things that we still end up taking to the dump but a whole trailer load I DON'T THINK SO!!!!!!!! She just didn't want to have to pay to dump that trash at the dump... It's sad that people just don't care.......................................

It's been a while!

AS you can see I have not been very good about writing in my blog.... It's just the same ol crap Tim and Chris fighting and Michael throwing his fits..

Anyone want to be my partner with this weight lost

Okay I really need some encouragement I really don't have the support that I need to loose this weight. I really feel like I am spinning my wheels . Anyone that would like to send me daily Happy Thoughts I would not turn you down!! I've got to get in shape I am so tired of feeling like a old woman!!! My health depends on this, I am going to keep track daily my exercise and diet plan along with pictures every now and then hopefully this will get me motivated

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Happy Birthday Michael

Well 17 years ago today I gave birth to my son Michael He was the cutest little rug rat! Blonde hair that stood up no matter what I did to try and make it lie down. He was a really good baby. I remember so many times just looking at him and being amazed what a beautiful child he is. I was so happy to be his mother, Around the age of 1.5 I noticed that my "perfect" baby wasn't so Perfect after all. I noticed that he would sit and rock for hours and would not look at me when I called him. He didn't want to be held and he became a very picky eater. I took him for some test and was informed that my child was Autistic I thought I would die that day! What happen? Where did Igo wrong? I couldn't understand why I would have a child like this.. As the years progressed I became very angry , I get so upset that he will never be able to drive a car hold a job or even get married so I can be a grandma someday! This was not what I had planned for my life. Today he is a 17 year old in a Grown man's body with the mind of a 5 year old. He never want's to go anywhere, he won't get dressed in fear that we are going to leave the house. I wonder why I was allowed to be this child's mother? I really can't help him in the way that he need's help , Right now I can't even get the child to attend school anymore, all he wants to do is sit in his bedroom and watch video's all the time. I really hate the fact that I feel this way, IT is so hard to really love someone that demands so much from you. Don't get me wrong I love him as a mother should ,it's just I can't stand to be around him ,he drains me mentally and physically, I have lost all respect to those people that thought that they were helping this child. Guess what you didn't make a hell of a difference. Sorry that this is such a bummer I can't help being angry!!!

Where did I go wrong?

Where did I go wrong with my oldest son Chris? Here he will be 22 in March no job no drivers license no will to move out and start a life of his own!!!! All he does is fight and complain about politics and Health care and why he didn't get to go to college because we as his parents didn't put money away so he could go, and on and on... We were doing good just to provide a home and food and clothes for him and his younger brother. I am at my wits end trying to get him to move on with his life What am I to do???????

Life as we know it!

As I sit here and think back on my life I find it somewhat humorous, Life never turn's out like you think it will when you are younger, but that can be a good thing. I recall when I was a young girl ever wondering if there would be a man out there that would love me for who I am and not what others thought I should be. Well There is that special man , In Nov. of this year he and I will have been married for 25 years. I could never ask for a more loving and perfect man for me than my sweet Tim. Yes we have had our up's and downs but what relationship hasn't? I believe that those downs have brought us closer and made us really appreciate each other more and more. All around us we have dear friends that find themselves in a terrible predicament. Just this last year we have had 3 couples that we have known for years decided to end their marriages and go there separate ways. These are friends that were all married in the Temple and had been married at least 20 years or more.... It is so scary to think that people throw their marriage away like the weekly trash. I hope & pray that Those dear sweet friends will find happiness once again in their lives. I Thank my Heavenly Father everyday that he lead me and Tim together and that we have been blessed with 2 son's and that we are sealed for time and all eternity. We have a long way to go , We are not perfect,and I need to get myself back on track. I plan on making a new resolution to return to the fold and be the woman that I know that my H. F. want's me to be. I have made up my mind that I have to stop blaming others for my weakness and stand tall and do the right thing!

Friday's Snow Storm!!!

Well I can't believe this but it happened.... Tim went outside and thought that he would shovel the driveway,even though it was still snowing like crazy.... Well before I knew it he had fallen and knocked himself out so I had to call 911 to take him to the hospital, The roads were so bad that I had our Friend Robert Morgan go to the Hosp and bring him home when they got done with all the testing. He will be okay but they did find something on the cat scan so they did a MRI and he has 2 disk in his neck that are deteriorating and a lump on his thyroid, so of course he is freaking out and now he is having a fit because of the bill that we will have since he had to go and in a ambulance on top of that........it never ends around here I swear!!!

At my Wits End!

Well today was not a very productive day with Michael and his Doctor Visit, 1st of all we waited 45 minutes just to see him and then when we get in there he informs me that he wants Michael to see this other Doctor to be tested and treated that he really can't do anything for him. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a waste of time money and my nerves. There has got to be a program out there that I can help this kid with. IS it because he is on the States Insurance or what? All I can say is I really don't know how much more of his meltdowns and aggressive behavior I can take!!!!! Where did that sweet little boy of mine go? All I want is to be able to get this child the help that he need's is that asking to much?

This is Autism and Why no one should go through the Hell!

Not only do I deal with this daily @ home I have to deal with it @ work When he acts up Tim or Chris Will call me like I can do anything.
No one And I mean No one that does not have Child with a disability need to make sure that they never judge those that do and that thank God every single day that there kid is Normal even if their kid get's into trouble at least their kid is able to function in the world and be able to take care of them-self.